Currently – 9/20/19 (Fasting, Friend, Mistake)

I didn’t want to post anything yesterday about it in case I couldn’t do it but I decided that on Fridays I would try fasting for the entire day. I’ve heard a lot of good things about this and my dad frequently fasted when I was a kid so I’m not going into this blind. Basically fasting is a period of time where you temporarily go without eating food for various reasons, religious or just trying to be more health conscious. All you can do is really drink water or non flavored/sugary drinks. All I’ve had today is water and coffee.

I think I’m going to break it later tonight since this is more of a test to gauge my effects and how my body reacts to it. Right now I feel kind of light headed but not really anything else. This could be something I do every Friday for a while. I guess the main reason I did this was because I’ve noticed my body doing… not great in terms of just my own personal look. Though I guess more than that I feel like resetting my own eating habits because what I eat isn’t really healthy and I’ve heard that many people lose cravings for bad stuff while doing this. In any case it feels like the experiment was a success so I might do this more often.

For whatever reason I decided to text my friend while also being aware she might not answer. Turns out she actually did… which kind of turned badly. I was insensitive to her feelings, though not purposefully it was definitely on accident, and she chewed me out because of it. It was kind of disappointing because it seemed like she might have wanted to talk to me as well and I essentially just made her cut me off. It definitely wasn’t my intention to do this but I’m not going to pretend like I’m blameless. I really should have known better. I think I’m going to give her some space to let her want to come back if she should feel like it.

I’m really annoyed with myself because I keep seeming to make these mistakes over and over with her. She’s a really nice person and I hate to see her unhappy, even worse when I am the cause of her unhappiness. She has every right to be mad at me and I just hope she forgives me. There’s times when I think she would be better off without me. I don’t know. Maybe, maybe not.

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