At this point in time I’m really just waiting for school to start. Might be the ticket I need to change my life for the better. At the very least it could just be something to do to get my mind off of everything that’s going on. I feel like I’m going insane.
Right now I’m sitting on the couch/bed of my parent’s place listening to my dad continuously drone on as I’m desperately trying to sleep. His incessant complaining is infuriating to say the least. I already have insomnia so its difficult to sleep as it is without an aged man complaining about how he can’t sleep, most likely because he spent the entire car ride over sleeping.
I know I’m a little bitter but I can’t help it. Plus I want to be as honest as possible. Otherwise I’d just be lying to myself and anyone who reads this. I appreciate honesty above all else, even if it hurts someone’s feelings. In the long run you’ll end up a better person if someone tells you off as opposed to everyone pretending all your faults aren’t a big deal to your face.
I know I’ve said this before but I have absolutely no idea what the future holds for me. Its hard to see the pasture beyond the trees. I’ve gotten so used to being in really bad situations I forget what its like to be happy. I’m willing to give it my best shot. I just hope things start to turn around because I don’t know if I can keep doing this.